Faith.

I have faith, I can't see it, but i know it's there,
I remember you told me, have no fear,
but I fear every second, that your not here,
because i haven't forgotten our love so dear.

I have faith, that one day i'll recover from the pain,
I look forward to the day when i'll find a new love to gain,
because i'm tired of wishing you were here,
I'm tired of having something to fear.

I have faith, but I feel it disappearing,
I feel it leaving my soul, I feel myself losing control,
every time i hear that name, it makes my go insane,
because I pray that my love for you will go away,

but every time, my love for you comes back again.

Definition.

I'm defined, by the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i act, the way i look. People think they can read me like an open book, they think they can decipher my algorithmic feelings by, how hard i try to spit my game, even tho my pick up lines are hella lame... They think they can tell how much i love you, by the way i mention your name, every time i try to find someone to blame, for the reason my heart is broken, into infinitesimal microscopic pieces, in which you need a electron microscope to even begin to conceive. But what they would never believe, is that I'm truly defined by the way i try to relieve the feelings that deceive my soul into wishing i had you in my arms, a feeling that sets off an alarm, of domino effect emotions, that start commotion in my soul and ruin my devotion to finding a way, to change my definition.

Life Story.

The way you stare into my soul, they way your x-ray vision eyes can see into every valley, every hill, every knoll, of the hidden, the untold...
I'm lost inside, trying to find...
a way to unwind the feelings i've been trying to hide.
The way out of this desert, into that oasis of love that could only have been placed there by God up above. I'm petrified, in these barren lands, i'm desperate for the caress of your smooth, innocent hands. I'm hurt, by the intensity of your demands. How was i supposed know that Halo plus relationships equals no mans land. I guess you spoke the truth when you said he was better,
even though i had your back through the times of the most violent weather.
I'm HURT inside, trying to find,
a new meaning in life, i've lost that meaning...
i should have noticed sooner, the little smirk you had going,
the way your silky brown hair... or they way nothing could compare to the feeling you gave me by just standing thereee. in my ARMs, wrapped around you, never letting go.. i wish you were still in them even as i let these words flow. but you're not, your the epitomy of everything that i thought, would last... but as i look backk, i realize it would have never worked out, your way too good for me, my feelings were too loud. You. had ambition, Me.. i've just been sitting here wishin, that God would handle my problems, never taking any action, never trying to solve them.
I'm happy inside, trying to find,
the reason behind the way she can see into this very soul of mine, the way she resolves my problems, and no i'm not talking about THAT girl, you see, there's this girl i met. She speaks, with intelligence, this radiant vibe, that only the angels of heaven can recompense. shes amazingly, amazing, giving meaning to my life, giving me reason to strive, for that extra mile, to be better than THAT guy.

to be continued...

Apples

The world i see is black and white,
i'm lost in the darkness,
you,
are my light.

A world without you is colorless,
you make my life a vivid hue,
you bring meaning to "truly blessed",
my life is colorless without you.

when the clouds overrun the land,
with the shadows of despair,
you are the sunlight,
you brighten my life,
as if my problems weren't even there.

you're undefined,
although you define everything,
that defines heaven divine.

This feeling.

When i look into your eyes,
when i take a glimpse at your amazing smile with the dimples to the sides,
i get this feeling.
the problems of my world fading,
a mustard seed full of faith,
pushing me toward the skies from beneath.

your indescribable,
your visage has the angel's of the heavens in envy,
out of the 350000 flaws you "claim" you have,
there's only one visible, viable, undeniable flaw that i see,
there's only that fact that there's a you with no me.

lol.short one for tonight.. i'm blank.

your smile.

I must be asleep,
this must be a dream,
her amazing smile,
is far more beautiful than...
any Hawaiian sunset that i've ever seen.

More mesmerizing than Japanese Cherry Blossoms,
the one's that fall right at the end of winter,
you know.. just before spring.
i wish i had more pick up lines to make her smile,
i really can't imagine how God fit all that beauty,
into one human being.

I must be dreaming,
this dream is surreal,
wake me up PLEASE,
the feeling i get when i see her smile is SOOOO unreal.
me and you together,
is like mixing my favorite color teal.. with your favorite color..
even though i don't know it.. but i wanna get to know you for real.

I can see your mixed feelings,
and confusion through the way you smile,
i can see the potential happiness you confine,
behind your luscious lips, the way you move your hips,
the way your hair flips.

but i wanna know more,
so be my.. cherry blossom,
my sunrise,
be that supreme natural high.

[23:41] nikoreplies: i wish i had more pick up lines to make her smile,
[23:42] nikoreplies: i like the way the dimples on the corners of it, are likeee.. sooooooooooooooo indescribable?
[23:42] nikoreplies: edit*
[23:42] nikoreplies: that i cant speak, and ive got my heart in denial?
[23:43]: Haha.
[23:45] nikoreplies: cause i cant describe the feeling i get when that smile, fills my mind with thoughts of indescribable feelings that only in the vastness of heaven could you compile.
[23:46] nikoreplies: could compile*
[23:46] nikoreplies: not you.
[23:46] nikoreplies: haha
[23:46] : Lol.
[23:46] : I like that one.
[23:46] : Dengg..

[23:47] nikoreplies: haha
[23:47] nikoreplies: and that is definitely how i can describe the way i feel right now.
[23:47] nikoreplies: haha
[23:48] : Haha
[23:48]: aw.
[23:49] nikoreplies: so when we say goodnight tonight.. when we say goodbye to the light, just know you'll be the sunshine in my dreams, that make them shine bright.
she's fasho

the endless night

I'm dying deep inside,
you leave me open,
vulnerable to the feelings i want to hide.
my thoughts are sentimental,
the way i loved you,
should become the fundamentals,
of a true love,
like the essence of your soul,
and how it...
fits mine like a glove.

Lying to myself,
about the way you make me melt,
the way your fingers felt,
between the gaps of mine,
which are now are as empty as the space between the stars of Orion's Belt.

I'm waiting for the sunrise,
my life is dark without you as my sunshine.
an endless night ensues,
leaving me with dreams of you,
hoping for the sun to come through.

i'm dying without you,
lying about the feelings i know true,
waiting for the sunrise to come through,


yeaah, thats my love for you...
hoping one day that heavens will illuminate the constellation,
that fills the space between me and you.

My Reflection

When i look into her eyes,
i see her staring into mine.
she sees past the lies,
beyond the thoughts,
that are clouding up my mind.

I see through her reactions,
the true extent of my actions.
she knows how the very touch of her lips,
gives me soul the deepest satisfaction.

As i stare into her eyes,
i breathe deeply,
drawing her soul into my lungs,
and as i inhale,
i feel the ground falling away from beneath me.

I'm floating away on a natural high,
breaking the cloud line,
through to the heavenly skies.

As i stare into her eyes,
i see myself,

my true being through a mirror...

War.

This love is a battle,
and endless war,
war of love,
love of war.
the war i love...

she's my warrior,
my Valkyrie from above,
I'm left dying on the battlefield,
before the words "i love you",
could escape from my tongue.

I'm wounded on this battlefield..

this love is dying,
the love i thought would last,
this love i had amassed,
throughout the years of your love,
falling out of my grasp.

I'm reaching deep,
closing my hands upon air,
wishing it was your smooth brown hair.
my heart pounding in despair.

As this love lays dying,
my soul leaves my body,
light as a feather,
flying.

As my soul lifts to the heavens,
searching for yours among the clouds,
i lay dying on a battle field,
waiting for your love to abound.

this war is endless,

i pray to God,
please end this....