if i could tell you everything you meant to me. i would need to be able to slow down time so that 2 seconds would equal 3 days worth of time, in order to express how much i would like you to be mine. and i would need to be able to talk at light speed, because normal human speed wouldn't cut it if i was telling you what you mean to me. but that wouldn't be a problem, because just like the sun is to superman, i'm superhuman when you're with me.

;j

You're hypnotizing,
beautiful in every way,
from the way that you smile,
to the way you put the color into my days when they're gray,
but this feeling is so foreign to me,
i like you uncontrollably,
and i pray desperately for something to take control of me,
because i'm scared,
the butterflies you give me make me so unprepared.
In the vast emptiness of the area my heart used to reside,
I feel a feint beat resonating from the feelings i cannot hide,
because every time you laugh,
every time you say 'mmmmhhhhm'
bits and pieces of my heart begin to amass,
as I recover from this heart break,
this deep like for you begins to take,
the shape of an infatuation i have with your muffins and babycakes.
I feel so useless,
because you tell me i have this charm,
but i don't how to use it,
i don't understand how to set off that alarm,
inside of your heart,
that let's you know that you're falling for me too,
and that my words are mending that once broken heart,
that actions of ignorance and boyish hormones last tore apart.
I wish i was the avatar of love,
the last air bender,
but instead of bending air,
i want to be the one that runs his fingers through your hair,
make you crack a smile that even the Mona Lisa couldn't compare.
I wanted you to know, that i'm falling for you deeply,
that my emotions are rolling down the slants of my smile so steeply,
that my heart can't keep up.
I hope and I pray so fervently, for the words and needed courage to express,
how you're mesmerizing smile,
cute voice,
soft spoken words,
are more satisfying to my soul than fresh choice,
and that these cheesy pick up lines and failed attempts at hollarin'
give me feelings and emotions that even in the vast space of heaven are unheard.

our prayer.

our lives are hidden in a mystery that will never be solved until we're completely at peace,
we live our lives, yearning, lusting for truth about his existence.
we live with a faith that he's behind everything good that happens to us.
we live with a hope that no matter what situation we find ourselves in,
he'll always be the one to come though for us.
we live not knowing when our time will come,
or how we'll be living at the time that it comes.
we need to live as if today, this day, was our last,
and live prepared for the day it comes.

we love you bro. we thank you for being our blessing from God.
we'll see you soon bro, once again. thank you for everything.

.eniale

I saw you today,
reminiscing on the days we were together,
praying and hoping that things would be better.
between you and me,
you're the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.
all the way from your toes painted red,
to that beautiful masterpiece that you call your head.

I couldn't help but stare,
you're beautiful smile caught me off guard,
i couldnt believe that all that time we were together,
i was unaware,
that you make my heart skip a beat,
got perspiration falling down my cheek,
like i was toasting in the African heat.

I don't understand that my love for you could be this deep,
you're presence makes my body tingle,
from my head all the way down to the tip of my feet.
The feeling that you give me is unique,
if only there was a twilight zone,
where our feelings could meet.

You know that i write these for you,
that your my inspiration for these beautiful words,
only befitting an angel from God,
that i hope he sent for me.
Until that day where my dreams and my prayers,
work together to create a you and me,
there will be that space in heaven where my love for you will always be...

love you.

I'm delirious from chasing the mysterious,
contents of a, broken heart, and the way the dry cracked Earth beneath me seems to fall apart,
as i ... try to find the existence of my soul, within my internal struggle for that eternal love,
that i faithfully pray for from the Lord above. Yet I'm lost in my sagaba, from this broken heart,
and as this Earth falling from beneath me continues to disappear, I'm left with nothing to support me, but everything to fear. I continue to free fall through the memories remembering the time it was you and I, when we were a pair instead of just you. me. As i travel through the clouds on my descent to the unknown, hear the cries of the weary, and hear the screams of the hopeless, as fall between them hoping that i'll move on and continue my descent. I need someone heaven sent. I thought you were heaven sent, my world back then was upside down, in a delirium where the fires of hell rained down from the skies and the remnants of heaven twisted and bent.


*sagaba- suffering in ilocano. too much blue scholars.

just a unfinished thought.

Faith.

I have faith, I can't see it, but i know it's there,
I remember you told me, have no fear,
but I fear every second, that your not here,
because i haven't forgotten our love so dear.

I have faith, that one day i'll recover from the pain,
I look forward to the day when i'll find a new love to gain,
because i'm tired of wishing you were here,
I'm tired of having something to fear.

I have faith, but I feel it disappearing,
I feel it leaving my soul, I feel myself losing control,
every time i hear that name, it makes my go insane,
because I pray that my love for you will go away,

but every time, my love for you comes back again.

Definition.

I'm defined, by the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i act, the way i look. People think they can read me like an open book, they think they can decipher my algorithmic feelings by, how hard i try to spit my game, even tho my pick up lines are hella lame... They think they can tell how much i love you, by the way i mention your name, every time i try to find someone to blame, for the reason my heart is broken, into infinitesimal microscopic pieces, in which you need a electron microscope to even begin to conceive. But what they would never believe, is that I'm truly defined by the way i try to relieve the feelings that deceive my soul into wishing i had you in my arms, a feeling that sets off an alarm, of domino effect emotions, that start commotion in my soul and ruin my devotion to finding a way, to change my definition.

Life Story.

The way you stare into my soul, they way your x-ray vision eyes can see into every valley, every hill, every knoll, of the hidden, the untold...
I'm lost inside, trying to find...
a way to unwind the feelings i've been trying to hide.
The way out of this desert, into that oasis of love that could only have been placed there by God up above. I'm petrified, in these barren lands, i'm desperate for the caress of your smooth, innocent hands. I'm hurt, by the intensity of your demands. How was i supposed know that Halo plus relationships equals no mans land. I guess you spoke the truth when you said he was better,
even though i had your back through the times of the most violent weather.
I'm HURT inside, trying to find,
a new meaning in life, i've lost that meaning...
i should have noticed sooner, the little smirk you had going,
the way your silky brown hair... or they way nothing could compare to the feeling you gave me by just standing thereee. in my ARMs, wrapped around you, never letting go.. i wish you were still in them even as i let these words flow. but you're not, your the epitomy of everything that i thought, would last... but as i look backk, i realize it would have never worked out, your way too good for me, my feelings were too loud. You. had ambition, Me.. i've just been sitting here wishin, that God would handle my problems, never taking any action, never trying to solve them.
I'm happy inside, trying to find,
the reason behind the way she can see into this very soul of mine, the way she resolves my problems, and no i'm not talking about THAT girl, you see, there's this girl i met. She speaks, with intelligence, this radiant vibe, that only the angels of heaven can recompense. shes amazingly, amazing, giving meaning to my life, giving me reason to strive, for that extra mile, to be better than THAT guy.

to be continued...

Apples

The world i see is black and white,
i'm lost in the darkness,
you,
are my light.

A world without you is colorless,
you make my life a vivid hue,
you bring meaning to "truly blessed",
my life is colorless without you.

when the clouds overrun the land,
with the shadows of despair,
you are the sunlight,
you brighten my life,
as if my problems weren't even there.

you're undefined,
although you define everything,
that defines heaven divine.

This feeling.

When i look into your eyes,
when i take a glimpse at your amazing smile with the dimples to the sides,
i get this feeling.
the problems of my world fading,
a mustard seed full of faith,
pushing me toward the skies from beneath.

your indescribable,
your visage has the angel's of the heavens in envy,
out of the 350000 flaws you "claim" you have,
there's only one visible, viable, undeniable flaw that i see,
there's only that fact that there's a you with no me.

lol.short one for tonight.. i'm blank.

your smile.

I must be asleep,
this must be a dream,
her amazing smile,
is far more beautiful than...
any Hawaiian sunset that i've ever seen.

More mesmerizing than Japanese Cherry Blossoms,
the one's that fall right at the end of winter,
you know.. just before spring.
i wish i had more pick up lines to make her smile,
i really can't imagine how God fit all that beauty,
into one human being.

I must be dreaming,
this dream is surreal,
wake me up PLEASE,
the feeling i get when i see her smile is SOOOO unreal.
me and you together,
is like mixing my favorite color teal.. with your favorite color..
even though i don't know it.. but i wanna get to know you for real.

I can see your mixed feelings,
and confusion through the way you smile,
i can see the potential happiness you confine,
behind your luscious lips, the way you move your hips,
the way your hair flips.

but i wanna know more,
so be my.. cherry blossom,
my sunrise,
be that supreme natural high.

[23:41] nikoreplies: i wish i had more pick up lines to make her smile,
[23:42] nikoreplies: i like the way the dimples on the corners of it, are likeee.. sooooooooooooooo indescribable?
[23:42] nikoreplies: edit*
[23:42] nikoreplies: that i cant speak, and ive got my heart in denial?
[23:43]: Haha.
[23:45] nikoreplies: cause i cant describe the feeling i get when that smile, fills my mind with thoughts of indescribable feelings that only in the vastness of heaven could you compile.
[23:46] nikoreplies: could compile*
[23:46] nikoreplies: not you.
[23:46] nikoreplies: haha
[23:46] : Lol.
[23:46] : I like that one.
[23:46] : Dengg..

[23:47] nikoreplies: haha
[23:47] nikoreplies: and that is definitely how i can describe the way i feel right now.
[23:47] nikoreplies: haha
[23:48] : Haha
[23:48]: aw.
[23:49] nikoreplies: so when we say goodnight tonight.. when we say goodbye to the light, just know you'll be the sunshine in my dreams, that make them shine bright.
she's fasho

the endless night

I'm dying deep inside,
you leave me open,
vulnerable to the feelings i want to hide.
my thoughts are sentimental,
the way i loved you,
should become the fundamentals,
of a true love,
like the essence of your soul,
and how it...
fits mine like a glove.

Lying to myself,
about the way you make me melt,
the way your fingers felt,
between the gaps of mine,
which are now are as empty as the space between the stars of Orion's Belt.

I'm waiting for the sunrise,
my life is dark without you as my sunshine.
an endless night ensues,
leaving me with dreams of you,
hoping for the sun to come through.

i'm dying without you,
lying about the feelings i know true,
waiting for the sunrise to come through,


yeaah, thats my love for you...
hoping one day that heavens will illuminate the constellation,
that fills the space between me and you.

My Reflection

When i look into her eyes,
i see her staring into mine.
she sees past the lies,
beyond the thoughts,
that are clouding up my mind.

I see through her reactions,
the true extent of my actions.
she knows how the very touch of her lips,
gives me soul the deepest satisfaction.

As i stare into her eyes,
i breathe deeply,
drawing her soul into my lungs,
and as i inhale,
i feel the ground falling away from beneath me.

I'm floating away on a natural high,
breaking the cloud line,
through to the heavenly skies.

As i stare into her eyes,
i see myself,

my true being through a mirror...

War.

This love is a battle,
and endless war,
war of love,
love of war.
the war i love...

she's my warrior,
my Valkyrie from above,
I'm left dying on the battlefield,
before the words "i love you",
could escape from my tongue.

I'm wounded on this battlefield..

this love is dying,
the love i thought would last,
this love i had amassed,
throughout the years of your love,
falling out of my grasp.

I'm reaching deep,
closing my hands upon air,
wishing it was your smooth brown hair.
my heart pounding in despair.

As this love lays dying,
my soul leaves my body,
light as a feather,
flying.

As my soul lifts to the heavens,
searching for yours among the clouds,
i lay dying on a battle field,
waiting for your love to abound.

this war is endless,

i pray to God,
please end this....

L O V E

i need inspiration,
i find it in you're beauty,
the love for yours truly,
but where have you gone,
its been so long since i felt,
that mesmerizing kiss,
that feeling that i miss.

still trying to find that inspiration,
i want to shout,
why won't these ideas come out,
I'm searching for a new love,
one that inspires,
but how can i find it in the maze of my desires.

she makes me weak,
she has my soul yearning,
for that love of which i speak.
she's everything that i seek.

but who is she,
just a flawless dream,
orgasmic like strawberries and whipped cream?

i know we all haven't found that true love,
that inspiration that we pray for from above.
so I'm searchin the world,
for that true love girl.

my new inspiration.

Best Friends

I was confused,
as the days flowed,
through and through.
I found it impossible,
to confess my love for you.

This found love,
love i found,
the key to my heart,
in which my soul was released.

this beauty divine,
this beauty i find,
beneath your light skin,
your smooth fingers,
interlocking with mine.

yet i cannot find,
the courage of mind,
to relinquish,
this feeling that has gone amiss.

i feel it with you,
yet what can i do.
a feeling so true,
i found within you.

you're the one i desire,
the only who angels truly admire,
God's blessing sent from above.

if i was only poetic enough,
to express what i must,
this longing for your unconditional love.



i wish i still had you as a bestfriend..
the times we kissed,
the way you smiled whenever you teased me.
the way you had that little smirk,
i know only you would remember.
i miss you bestfriend...
i know a love like this is hard to find again.

Judgement.

I'm heavy,
weighed down by the weight of the world,
I carry you on my shoulders.

They say I'm not trying,
that your judgment is in my hands.
I'm confused,
how do i fulfill these demands.

I look at you,
full of beauty and joy,
how could i compare you,
to a useless old toy.

I'm scared,
scared that i can't save you.
i see another on the street,
and i have to think to myself,
what am i supposed to do.

I'm lost,
lonely, in the guilt of my failure.
save me,
help me to mature.
strengthen my faith and help me to endure.

please make me strong to carry the weight,
of those who's salvation's unsure.
--------------------------------------------

today made me feel useless.

waiting.

i lie here waiting.
waiting for your presence,
waiting for this to make dream sense.
waiting for your love,
so please send me from above,
the angel for which i wait.

patiently,
i wait for the time,
wait for the time when your love will be mine,
so please help me define,
this feeling,
divine.

random.

World Traveler

Travel the world?
baby i'd travel forever,
just for the pleasure of the moment,
when we'll be together.

They say long distance never lasts,
but girl we'll make that phrase a thing of the past.
cause girl when im feeling whatever,
you bring me up higher than the clouds,
when im down under the weather.

The eternal bliss
from the moment we kissed,
felt like heavens embrace,
don't you remember that day
when we first met face to face?

so the next time im walkin' the streets,
walking by beauty,
in hope that i meet,
a girl worth world travel.

just remember,
you were the only one,
with the key to my heart to unravel.

this one bree bree.

so i forgot to mention that she was really 5'5,
long black hair with those beautiful brown eyes.
did i mention how her smile got me mesmerized?
or how her beauty got me hypnotized.

how can i portray,
through these modest words,
how she got me livin' day to day,
yearning for her voice.

she's got me blank and speechless,
making it impossible to see this.
my words diminish.
leaving me with no way to finish. . .



haha. so, i didn't lie when i said you got me blank and speechless. therefore i didn't finish.
i hope you like it anyway. i meant it. except for the corny stuff =] haha.

12:33 AM the day begins.

When you see something beautiful, when you hear something beautiful. feel you're soul overwhelmed with an unseen presence, you can only ponder on the things that make your life just so damn good. but when you feel empty, and you have nothing to ask yourself, but what am i missing? or why can't i be like him. why cant i have her.

so i speak.

girl you're so beautiful,
you bring my life a miracle,
in the form of a 5'3 beauty,
girl this is truly,
a blessing from God.

beautiful brown eyes,
so warming to my insides,
your scent is flirtatious,
your smile's contagious,
but when i see you passin' by,
i can only ask why.

why i cant have you,
why this dream just can't come true.
to my human eyes this dream is only see-through.

more profound than the world's immenseness,
eaten up by your beauty's intenseness,
Lord help me come to my senses,
your angel's leav'n me defenseless.

answer the prayers that seem to never come true,
answer the questions that keep leaving me with no clue.
I won't worry,
I'll keep on praying for the blessings that only come from you.

and so i beg,
please send me an angel to get me through,