if i could tell you everything you meant to me. i would need to be able to slow down time so that 2 seconds would equal 3 days worth of time, in order to express how much i would like you to be mine. and i would need to be able to talk at light speed, because normal human speed wouldn't cut it if i was telling you what you mean to me. but that wouldn't be a problem, because just like the sun is to superman, i'm superhuman when you're with me.

;j

You're hypnotizing,
beautiful in every way,
from the way that you smile,
to the way you put the color into my days when they're gray,
but this feeling is so foreign to me,
i like you uncontrollably,
and i pray desperately for something to take control of me,
because i'm scared,
the butterflies you give me make me so unprepared.
In the vast emptiness of the area my heart used to reside,
I feel a feint beat resonating from the feelings i cannot hide,
because every time you laugh,
every time you say 'mmmmhhhhm'
bits and pieces of my heart begin to amass,
as I recover from this heart break,
this deep like for you begins to take,
the shape of an infatuation i have with your muffins and babycakes.
I feel so useless,
because you tell me i have this charm,
but i don't how to use it,
i don't understand how to set off that alarm,
inside of your heart,
that let's you know that you're falling for me too,
and that my words are mending that once broken heart,
that actions of ignorance and boyish hormones last tore apart.
I wish i was the avatar of love,
the last air bender,
but instead of bending air,
i want to be the one that runs his fingers through your hair,
make you crack a smile that even the Mona Lisa couldn't compare.
I wanted you to know, that i'm falling for you deeply,
that my emotions are rolling down the slants of my smile so steeply,
that my heart can't keep up.
I hope and I pray so fervently, for the words and needed courage to express,
how you're mesmerizing smile,
cute voice,
soft spoken words,
are more satisfying to my soul than fresh choice,
and that these cheesy pick up lines and failed attempts at hollarin'
give me feelings and emotions that even in the vast space of heaven are unheard.

our prayer.

our lives are hidden in a mystery that will never be solved until we're completely at peace,
we live our lives, yearning, lusting for truth about his existence.
we live with a faith that he's behind everything good that happens to us.
we live with a hope that no matter what situation we find ourselves in,
he'll always be the one to come though for us.
we live not knowing when our time will come,
or how we'll be living at the time that it comes.
we need to live as if today, this day, was our last,
and live prepared for the day it comes.

we love you bro. we thank you for being our blessing from God.
we'll see you soon bro, once again. thank you for everything.

.eniale

I saw you today,
reminiscing on the days we were together,
praying and hoping that things would be better.
between you and me,
you're the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.
all the way from your toes painted red,
to that beautiful masterpiece that you call your head.

I couldn't help but stare,
you're beautiful smile caught me off guard,
i couldnt believe that all that time we were together,
i was unaware,
that you make my heart skip a beat,
got perspiration falling down my cheek,
like i was toasting in the African heat.

I don't understand that my love for you could be this deep,
you're presence makes my body tingle,
from my head all the way down to the tip of my feet.
The feeling that you give me is unique,
if only there was a twilight zone,
where our feelings could meet.

You know that i write these for you,
that your my inspiration for these beautiful words,
only befitting an angel from God,
that i hope he sent for me.
Until that day where my dreams and my prayers,
work together to create a you and me,
there will be that space in heaven where my love for you will always be...

love you.

I'm delirious from chasing the mysterious,
contents of a, broken heart, and the way the dry cracked Earth beneath me seems to fall apart,
as i ... try to find the existence of my soul, within my internal struggle for that eternal love,
that i faithfully pray for from the Lord above. Yet I'm lost in my sagaba, from this broken heart,
and as this Earth falling from beneath me continues to disappear, I'm left with nothing to support me, but everything to fear. I continue to free fall through the memories remembering the time it was you and I, when we were a pair instead of just you. me. As i travel through the clouds on my descent to the unknown, hear the cries of the weary, and hear the screams of the hopeless, as fall between them hoping that i'll move on and continue my descent. I need someone heaven sent. I thought you were heaven sent, my world back then was upside down, in a delirium where the fires of hell rained down from the skies and the remnants of heaven twisted and bent.


*sagaba- suffering in ilocano. too much blue scholars.

just a unfinished thought.

Faith.

I have faith, I can't see it, but i know it's there,
I remember you told me, have no fear,
but I fear every second, that your not here,
because i haven't forgotten our love so dear.

I have faith, that one day i'll recover from the pain,
I look forward to the day when i'll find a new love to gain,
because i'm tired of wishing you were here,
I'm tired of having something to fear.

I have faith, but I feel it disappearing,
I feel it leaving my soul, I feel myself losing control,
every time i hear that name, it makes my go insane,
because I pray that my love for you will go away,

but every time, my love for you comes back again.

Definition.

I'm defined, by the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i act, the way i look. People think they can read me like an open book, they think they can decipher my algorithmic feelings by, how hard i try to spit my game, even tho my pick up lines are hella lame... They think they can tell how much i love you, by the way i mention your name, every time i try to find someone to blame, for the reason my heart is broken, into infinitesimal microscopic pieces, in which you need a electron microscope to even begin to conceive. But what they would never believe, is that I'm truly defined by the way i try to relieve the feelings that deceive my soul into wishing i had you in my arms, a feeling that sets off an alarm, of domino effect emotions, that start commotion in my soul and ruin my devotion to finding a way, to change my definition.