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You're hypnotizing,
beautiful in every way,
from the way that you smile,
to the way you put the color into my days when they're gray,
but this feeling is so foreign to me,
i like you uncontrollably,
and i pray desperately for something to take control of me,
because i'm scared,
the butterflies you give me make me so unprepared.
In the vast emptiness of the area my heart used to reside,
I feel a feint beat resonating from the feelings i cannot hide,
because every time you laugh,
every time you say 'mmmmhhhhm'
bits and pieces of my heart begin to amass,
as I recover from this heart break,
this deep like for you begins to take,
the shape of an infatuation i have with your muffins and babycakes.
I feel so useless,
because you tell me i have this charm,
but i don't how to use it,
i don't understand how to set off that alarm,
inside of your heart,
that let's you know that you're falling for me too,
and that my words are mending that once broken heart,
that actions of ignorance and boyish hormones last tore apart.
I wish i was the avatar of love,
the last air bender,
but instead of bending air,
i want to be the one that runs his fingers through your hair,
make you crack a smile that even the Mona Lisa couldn't compare.
I wanted you to know, that i'm falling for you deeply,
that my emotions are rolling down the slants of my smile so steeply,
that my heart can't keep up.
I hope and I pray so fervently, for the words and needed courage to express,
how you're mesmerizing smile,
cute voice,
soft spoken words,
are more satisfying to my soul than fresh choice,
and that these cheesy pick up lines and failed attempts at hollarin'
give me feelings and emotions that even in the vast space of heaven are unheard.